Grateful

All throughout today, it felt like God wanted to talk to me about the issue I’ve been struggling with. After the consulting skills workshop, I wasn’t very happy for a couple of days due to my career path. It seemed so long and far away to be where I wanted to be and thought I started two ladders lower than where I wanted to be.

This morning, I got up with this radio show and they were talking about people’s jobs and how much they make. I realized that there are so many people out there who were seriously underpaid. Besides, on my way on the gym this evening, I was listening to NPR for the first time after a couple of weeks. From NPR, the news caster was talking about Chinese farmers who did not have health insurance. Right after that, she was talking about people who have jobs with very inflexible hours and how difficult it is to manage their lives, especially when they have little kids. Some people were fired since they were not able to come to work for a couple of days due to their children’s sickness.

All day long, I thought about how blessed I am to have this job. When I received the job offer last August, I was very excited and did not care much about the details of the offer. But before too long, I started comparing this and that with someone else’s. When I received this job offer, I knew that it would be my perfect first job since God guided me in this path. I felt so shamed that I have complained with small things for the last couple of days and forgot about the feelings I had last year.

It’s easy to take what you have for granted. I should be more grateful about what I have. I have so many good things that I cannot even start the list. I won’t be able to finish the list until tomorrow morning. On the other hand, what I want to have is handful and it might not be what I ‘need’ anyway.

I feel grateful again since God once again took some time with me and made me realize how much He loves me. Oh, God. When can I become more mature? Thank you for loving me in spite of my childish behavior time to time.